Would you bully a friend? Would you talk to a friend the way you talk to yourself? Would you grab their "love handles" and call them fat? Would you grab that extra skin on their arms and fling it back and forth, frowning at them, telling them they better start doing more push-ups? I think not. As woman, we have to learn to love each and every part of who we are. Last Friday when I posted a flex Friday picture, at the same time someone I follow here on Instagram did too. She's got amazing arms. AMAZING. What did I do? Started to feel silly. I was so close to deleting the post of MY arms because I thought I wasn't "ripped" enough. I let that self sabotage sink in. My stomach has always been my "problem" area. I once had someone who was very close to me, walk up behind me and grab both my sides...then proceeded to say it looked like I was gaining weight (haha funny funny she thought!) That happened 15 years ago and it still scars me. Nowadays, I work to reach my goals and also remember that I carried two little humans inside of it for 8 months. #bodiesareamazing We are all built differently. We all carry weight in different places. We all are on different journeys, and we were all created to be US. No one else! Embrace your imperfections. Remember how far you have come. This is YOUR freakin life my friends. Your body. And remember we all started somewhere. Don't compare your beginning to someone else's middle or end... Now go look in the mirror and tell yourself your sexy. #bringingsexyback #nofilter

2015 vision board

Today has been a super crazy emotional day, that started before the sun came up. I won't go into detail about the events that took place, BUT I wanted to share my goals publicly for the first time in 2 years. I remember the first time I ever shared my vision board, and it was scary, scary stuff. I thought who in their right mind would put some crazy out there that MIGHT not even come true, so then if it doesn't, the entire world can watch you fail...
That's what I USED to think. I also used to think that dreaming big was stupid, and something I should never do. Because why would I, small town girl who's battled depression, been overweight, and been knocked down more times then I would like to admit, why would I possibly think any of those things would happen. I stayed in my shell, I thought it "would be cool" to make some of those things happen, but never in my life have I EVER felt like this. Never have I felt so in control of my destiny, and in control of my future.
What changed? I don't know. I do know I haven't got it all figured out yet. What I do know, is the day I stopped comparing myself to other people and what they wanted THEIR life to look like, is the day I finally saw my vision to be so much clearer.
I am learning to stop over thinking so much, to let go and give the universe total control. To wake up and know that I am here for a reason, I am here to make wonderful, totally awesome things happen.
Because this life, this is it my friends. We get one shot. Why should we sit in the corner and watch everyone else be happy, but yet feel so sad and down ourselves each day....
I get it. It's tough stuff. It's hard to love you, and just YOU. It took me years to finally realize it starts with me....if I don't believe in myself, who the hell else will believe in me?
My goals used to seem scary to me, but when I was creating this today, I just thought of everything that was in my heart, and it went on this board. From having another baby, to helping 4 of my coaches become diamonds this year to hit my personal HUGE SCARY goal of 5 star diamond by the end of the year.
I'm not scared this time...I'm excited to see what's in store for my team, my family, and me in 2015.

Stop comparing

Right? Because honestly, do we REALLY know their struggles? I'm here to break the news to you...no one, I repeat NO ONE, is perfect.
I work closely with a LOT of woman. Some are stronger then nails, others doubt everything they do from the way they do their hair to the way they dress, to the way they parent.
Because someone is ALWAYS doing it better then us.
Am I right?
That girl over there never looks bad, she ALWAYS looks like she just rolled out of bed and looks beautiful...that Mom over there ALWAYS has it together, her kids are perfect, her house is perfect, and man her husband is perfect too....that business owner who makes her job look EASY and just bounces through life not having to work hard, everything just falls into her lap....
What you don't see, is that woman who spends hours in her bathroom in front of the mirror, wondering if she has gotten her hair to look PERFECT, or if anyone will notice the wrinkles coming in around her eyes....we don't see the Mom who is hanging on by a thread at 6pm most days, who doesn't get anymore then 4 hours a sleep a night, and who cries herself to sleep sometimes....we don't see that successful business owner who is plugging in hours at her desk, frustrated most days because she thinks her hard work will never pay off, but deep down in her GUT she hears God whispering "don't you dare give up"

If these are just a bunch of words to you, then you might be missing my point. My point is this.
You are YOU. You are an awesome, amazing, PERFECT you. You are crazy cool, and super fabulous, and what you THINK might be your flaws, are make up that perfect part of you.
God created you to be the one and only....you need to stop caring about what THAT woman looks like, what THAT Mom is doing, or what THAT business woman is doing....
Comparing yourself to other people, is the WORST thing you could do do yourself if your trying to grow, be happy, or just get your shit together. When you start to focus on YOU, and only you....I promise, promise, promise, everything will gently and slowly fall into place.
So starting today...pinky swear me you are going to be your most awesomely perfect self, and not think anyone else is cooler then you.
K?

Catching up

I promise I will be catching up with all my holiday news asap! I sent my kiddos off to school today, after being off for 14 days. Needless to say it was a tad rough, but we made it lol! I first wanted to share the most awesome gift I received...probably the most thoughtful and caring gift I have ever received. A necklace with my father in-laws finger print on it. I of course broke down crying, but wow. I'm still in shock. My mother in-law is amazing. To remember that I said one day I wanted one of those just a couple days after he passed, and make that happen for me shows just how incredible of a person she is. I will never forget this Christmas and how special she made it for us all, while going through her own personal struggles. Love you Nana!! #missyoupapa